Here is a letter I wrote over a month ago on Wilf’s first birthday. Dunc and I are buying a monogrammed leather notebook to write to him in each year.
Wilf. Here we are, a year in and what a year. The best year of my life. You have taught me so much about myself, it feels like I’ve known you forever. Like you’ve always been a part of me.
Now I think back to what I was doing a year ago and I can’t quite believe that it has been a whole year. Being your mum is the greatest task I’ve ever undertaken and the best gift I have ever received.
I still cannot understand how I carried you inside me. You who are so much your own person, who is so big and more childlike than babylike. You who is so inquisitive, who can’t stay still for five seconds and who is so very happy. It doesn’t seem possible that you were that tiny baby lifted out of the water and placed into my arms. Yet it also is so clear that you are that same baby who I have held and kissed every single day.
You are getting so strong on your legs. We have had two weeks of you starting to stand independently and I can tell that you are so close to those first steps but I don’t think you’re too bothered just yet. Crawling has been you’re favourite past time for the last six months so why change now?!
You are definitely getting the cutest, cheekiest personality. And with it has appeared the happiest smile I ever did see. There is of course some testing of boundaries. The whole ‘how many times can I throw my sippy cup on the floor’ routine does get tiresome. I can also tell that those painful teething days are just the worst as you are not our happy boy. You become sad, unsteady and cry at the slightest thing, even just not feeding you qutie as quickly as you would like can lead to floods of tears.
But you are genuinely such a happy and bright boy. You sleep so well. You fit in with busy days out and you love to see our friends and family. You have settled in really well at nursery and are always full of smiles for us after a long day at work.
So to our Wilf, our darling son, I cannot wait to see you tackle all the new things you are to learn and to see you grow. I am so happy that I get to be a part of your journey.
All our love always x